A LONELY PAINT BRUSH

AS AN ARTIST I STILL QUESTION THE VALIDITY

OF A PAINTING.
 I UNDERSTAND THAT THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL OR GROTESQUE,
BUT MY QUESTION STILL REMAINS...
"DOES ART FEED THE HUNGRY AND THE DESTITUTE"?

IT HAS BEEN SOOOOO DIFFICULT TO RECONCILE THE FACT THAT

I WAS BORN TO PAINT, AND BY DOING THIS
I WOULD MINISTER TO THE PUBLIC.

UNFORTUNATELY ART DOES NOT HELP THE POOR IN NEED,
IT MIGHT MINISTER IN A SPIRITUAL WAY
BUT IN MY LIMITED CAPACITY AS AN ARTIST...
I CAN'T SEE HOW IT WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

I'M SIMPLY EXPOSING MY DEEPEST FEELINGS BECAUSE MAYBE THERE
IS SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT NEEDS TO KNOW THAT THEY ARE NOT
ALONE.

I'M A CHRISTIAN ARTIST WHO IS ATTEMPTING TO WALK THE
NARROW AND LONG PATH TO GOD VIA ART.

IT'S A LONG AND LONELY PATH TO THE FATHER...
BECAUSE IN THE LONG RUN I WILL BE BY MYSELF
WHEN I TAKE THAT FINAL STEP OFF THE PATH OF LIFE.
AND
I MEET THE CREATOR.
HE WILL REQUEST FOR ME TO RECALL WHAT I DID WITH HIS
GIFT OF ART.

THIS WILL BE TOUGH,
BUT I WANT TO ANSWER
AND
SAY
"I TRIED"

SO FOR NOW
I SUPPOSE I'LL CONTINUE TO BE THAT LONELY PAINT BRUSH
THAT WILL CONTINUE TO PAINT ONLY
WHAT MY
ABBA FATHER WANTS ME TO PAINT.

MAY THE JOURNEY UNFOLD.

by

Veronica Escudero
Artist